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[sakura rodriguez]

Maybe logging onto the don'tmakethiseasy chat room-thingy hadn't been such a bad idea afterall? Or maybe it had been a good idea at the same time? Sakura didn't know, all that she knew was that Jeremy hadn't been in the tour bus at the time she was hiding, and that he would be there shortly. It was her own stupid fault for telling him that she didn't wish to discuss what was wrong with her other chat room-thingy, which led him to tell her that he would at the tour bus shortly. Well, damn. This was just what she wanted. Another one of her friends to worry about her. First it had been Danny, then it had been her brother Alexis; now it was going to be Jeremy. Who would it be next? Blake?

Sakura sighed, signed out of the chat room-thingy and pressed her head against the top of the table. Having no idea where Jeremy was, meant that she had no idea how long she had to prepare herself for a guilt trip. Lifting her head up off of the table and shutting down her laptop completely, the red head rubbed her eyes with the sides of hands and pushed the chair out from under the table. Knowing Jeremy; he would be there quicker than she could say 'hippopotomous' - which generally took her a long time, before she had difficulty in saying that word anyway.

Slender legs worked their way from the table in the kitchen area, over to the bunks. Where she sat herself down on the lowest one (which just so happened to be Jeremy's) and leaned backwards agains the wall. It was fairly dark in the tour bus and she wondered where everyone was. Surely they weren't out partying without her? Actually, no, she could believe that. Especially since she had taken to retiring to the tour bus a lot earlier than she normally did.

The red head looked up when the door to the tour bus opened. "That you, Jeremy?" She asked. Who else could it be?

[jeremy harte !]

YOU CAN FEEL THE POUNDING WRAPPED AROUND YOUR CHEST
JEREMYHARTE

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Jeremy could tell from when he first spoke to sakura that she wasn’t her usual self. It was always pretty easy to tell with her and well he had known her since like forever it was something that was easy to just recogni8ze when it came to her. Though her moods going down didn’t happen often but when he hadn’t seen her out and about at all today he did begin to worry about which was why he was glad to catch her online. Jeremy wasn’t one that sat around in the tour bus for a very long time. He got bored easily and always felt like he should be doing something better. Today he mainly just wandering around, chatting to people he knew. One thing about being part of a band was that you learned to meet a lot of people and quickly. Not to mention Jeremy was just a natural when it came to meeting new people. It wasn’t something he had to really think about, he just knew how to talk, and when to talk to make people both notice him and like hi. It was like a natural talent even if Jeremy really could be quite the freak as well. Just depended on his mood. Which right now was pretty good for the most part even if there was a bit of worry there as well. You could tell he wasn’t in a crazy talkative mood and that as he walked he definitely had a place in mind where he was going so people didn’t really stop him to chat or anything.

Jeremy had actually just been at a cafe getting coffee since he hadn’t slept much at all the night before when he decided to see who was around so it didn’t take him too long to get back to the tour buses him smoking a fag along the way just to sort of make sure he was calm enough that he didn’t tackle her with questions when he entered the tour bus. He didn’t want to scare her away or anything, that would just end in something worse but he figured it was something fairly serious. He just hoped it wasn’t something that would lead him to hate someone. As much as Jeremy had his friends the people in his band he was closest too and really his mind could change about a person quite quickly if it came to people hurting them. It was just the way he was and it tended to have a lot of people fearing getting on his wrong side. After all he was known to get into a few physical fights from time to time. But it was one of those things that he had to deem necessary first. He didn’t just go and randomly start beating on a guy. He was fairly gentle for the most part, just as long as they were nice to him and his friends. Simple as that, follow those things and you wouldn’t get hurt.

Dropping his cigarette as he finally made it to his tour bus he looked at it before running his fingers through his hair and stepping inside. He chuckled gently at her words and shook his head taking off his shoes since he always hated wearing them. Especially around here ‘no its santa claus. Ho ho ho’ he said sarcastically. He could at times have a sort of dry humour but people learned to just respect that and make the best of it. Moving to see her sitting on his bed he stuck out his tongue ‘and to think i thought my bed would still be nicely made when i got back’ he said simply with a smile. He was used to her just going into his bed, him often having to squeeze in on his bunk with her when she would decide at night that it was her bed. Jeremy not really one to go into other peoples beds just because you never knew what they did on there. Not that you knew what happened on your own bed either, you needed like a security pad in order to know that. Which Jeremy wasn’t all that willing to do. He just pretended it was clean and nobody had tainted his little bunk. Which was probably a bad idea, but it kept his mind at ease at least.

Moving onto the bed beside her he pulled her closer to him and kissed the side of her head ‘hey babes’ he added gently. You could always tell who Jeremy cared for and who he didn’t just by the way he treated them. Sakura probably being the one that he was closest too. But that also went from the fact that he had known her forever as well b]‘so i think you should start talking so we can get you back to your natural cheery self, don’t you think?’

[/b] he asked with a grin playing with her hair a bit. That was always jeremy’s first instinct with girls, he loved their hair. He was a bit of a retard that way and sometimes people did question his sexuality but he was definitely straight, even if the guys seemed to want him just as bad as the girls. Which simply made him laugh. Right now though his concentration was simply on sakura and getting her more lively again. Happy pills for the win. Definitely might need some of those tonight.
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•tags• immy aka sakura
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[sakura rodriguez]

It was funny, how things took a turn for the worse when you were really, really happy. At the moment Sakura was hating her life; she believed that it was the paparazzi's fault that everything bad, that had happened to her now, had happened. It always came in threes. First there was the blow to the back of her head. Then there was the rape and then the carving of those three letters into her left arm, on the inside. She wondered if anything else was going to happen to her, but hoped that nothing would, at the same time.

The red head sighed and rubbed her eyes as she sat herself down on Jeremy's bed, not really wanting to climb to the very top to get to her own bunk. She was in no mood, and didn't think that she even had enough energy to climb. Therefore; Jeremy's bunk would just have to suffice. Sakura often climbed into Jeremy's bed - when she wasn't in Blake's, of course. Most of the time she was in Blake's, but today she felt the need to go to Jeremy's.. mainly because it was closer to the floor, and Blake's.. wasn't.

Just as she was leaning back, she heard a noise; stupidly asking if that was Jeremy, when she knew that it was. Though, she had just wanted to make sure. When he told her that it was santa claus; the red head shook her head gently, a wry smile crossed her pale features briefly as she sat up a little straighter and watched Jeremy come over to his bunk. Absently, she toyed at the bandage on her arm, picking the fluff and watching it trail to the floor.

A certain amount of weight was now on the bunk. Sakura turned her head to the left, only to be greeted by huge arms and then a shirt. Still not used to the idea of physical contact at the moment, the little red head stiffened slightly but then sunk into the hug, leaning her head on Jeremy's shoulder and smiling very faintly when he kissed the side of her head and started to speak again, playing with her hair. Feeling slightly more comfortable than she had been with Danny and Alexis, Sakura interlaced one of her small hands with Jeremy's free one and spoke softly, into his shirt.

"I guess, but please don't get mad, or worry. I had enough of it from Danny and Alexis; I don't need any more people worrying." Tilting her head upwards, Sakura's greens looked into Jeremy's blues, searching for any tell-tell signs that he was going to worry. Taking a deep breath she decided to just tell him. "Jere.. aguyrapedmetheothernight, thenhecarvedinitialsintomyarm, and threatened the lives of my friends, yours included."

[jeremy harte !]

YOU CAN FEEL THE POUNDING WRAPPED AROUND YOUR CHEST
JEREMYHARTE

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Jeremy was someone who was pretty easy going. Whether life brought bad news or good news he sort of just took it as it came and found a way to make everything better once again. He was always like that, he never really was one of those people to just get in ruts and think life sucks and want to kill himself or anything. That thought had not once crossed his mind. He figured it was probably just because he actually did have a fairly good life but he didn’t understand why people would want to kill themselves. It didn’t make sense in that mind of his. But maybe if he had gone through what some people did in their life time he would be able to figure things out a bit better. But Jeremy was just a happy camper which is why most people went to him with their problems, because he was always good at making light of each situation. Then again he had never been told anything crazy serious either. Which was something he was glad about at the same time, because he did have some anger issues and he wouldn’t want to waste them on the wrong person. Jeremy was pretty good at hiding his anger issues though and often smoking was what caused him to actually be okay but the moment he walked into the tour bus he felt as if he needed another smoke already. He always found there was something about certain atmospheres that you could tell that maybe you should just turn around and leave. But of course, it was Jeremy and this was his best friend, he wasn’t exactly going to do just that. He just hoped he was imagining the worst or something since he didn’t think he could deal with too much shit.

Jeremy had only picked a bottom bunk when they had all fought for there beds in the beginning because of the fact that it wasn’t high off the ground. This wasn’t because he hated heights or anything but this meant it was easy to get into bed and he had a less chance of hurting himself if he ever fell off or something. Plus it was cozy. Jeremy loved cozy, hence why when he was young he used to sleep in the closet instead of on his big bed that he had. He liked small areas, and always managed to be comfortable in them. Yet people always stole his bed because it was easier to get to and it was pure evil. The only person he actually let stay in his bed would be sakura and he really never was sure why, he just always deemed her special enough to be allowed of that privilege. Something people teased him for but Jeremy was good with teasing of his own so they learned to cut the guy a break and let him go on with his weird ways. Seeing her smile a bit made him smile back as well as he climbed onto the bed next to her making himself comfortable in the tiny beds that they got, obviously not meant to be shared that was for sure. But it was a tour, it worked out fine. Plus small spaces, something he liked. So everything was in the bonus for him right now.

He frowned slightly when she stiffened for a moment into the small hug which was something he had never seen her do. She was always about hugs and cuddles and kisses and everything so he thought it incredibly odd for her to do so but she said that she would tell him. So he would instead of jumping to conclusions just wait for her to open up to him. It was a lot easier this way and Jeremy had an incredible imagination so it was definitely not a good thing, him thinking too hard and all. Jeremy looked down at her with concern when she said this but smiled a bit ‘i will try not too, but first you have to tell me what it is. Otherwise we cant change anything,. Kay love?’ he asked her gently. You could tell her really did care about her, he wasn’t goofing around and acting silly like usual. He was actually being much quieter and more protective as you could tell from just the way he held her close at the moment. Squeezing her hand gently it was basically an indication to go on so that she didn’t change her mind. After all it would be really hard to get it out of her once she decided she didn’t want to tell him or something. And he didn’t think he was in quite the mood to bug her about it, after all that would be her own decision. His grip tightened for a moment against her hand when she finally blurted it out, and though it took a bit more hearing he got every word she said which made him loose eye contact with her and just stare ahead. Since he had to remain in control of his anger towards this guy whom she wasn’t even sure did anything. But the moment she said anything he knew there also would be no convincing of her going to the police either.

After just taking a few moments of silence he looked down at her ‘you know, sometimes you should... not think so much of threats and make sure your okay first’ he said in a whisper noticing the bandage now on her arm. Kissing her cheek softly he brought her arm gently over his lap. ‘I wont hurt you, promise’ he added with a small smile but he unwrapped the bandage very slowly wincing slightly at the nice scar she would most likely have for it. ‘Did you put something on this before just bandaging it up’ he asked trying to distract himself from this. Though another thing occurred to him, though they were close and talked about a lot she had never really mentioned anything about sex before. So it sort of added to his concern ‘hey sakura? Were you a virgin’ he asked simply. It was always worse when it was something like that. But right now more then anything he wanted to get his hands on the twat who did this to her, having her wholed up in the tour bus instead of out smiling and placing some sort of magic over everyone like usual. It was messed up.

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•tags• immy aka sakura
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•comments• nomnomnomnext one will be better <3
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[sakura rodriguez]

Sakura didn't mean to recoil from his touch; she was scared of all moves coming from every single male that she had ever encountered in her life, and now she thought that she was just being silly. Shaking her head at her own stupidity and looking up at Jeremy; the red head mumbled a small apology and leaned her head on his shoulder, looking at his lap, thinking. Slowly, she nodded when he said that he would try not to worry about her, when she told him about what happened. Sakura understood; there was no way that he wasn't going to not worry about her. She was the baby of the band and the only girl - all the guys saw her as a little sister and worried whenever she did something stupid. He squeezed her hand and she jumped a little, then relaxed and sighed before going off into an explanation about what was up with her.

For a moment she thought that he was angry with her, but when he spoke after the haunting silence, Sakura sighed and smiled extremely briefly, and faintly, when he kissed her cheek and moved her arm so that it was sitting in her lap. The red head winced as he unwrapped the bandage on her arm, chewing on the inside of her lip. "Alex cleaned it up, but I don't remember him putting anything on it, and even if I tried I would have refused; you know as well as most people that I don't deal with pain very well." Sakura raised her free hand to move a strand of her hair out of her eyes, tucking it behind her ears and moving her gaze from her arm.

She looked at the wall in front of her, concentrating on one spot, watching the moonlight make crazy dust swirls dance in the ray; it would be prettier if it were the sun, but she wasn't going to complain, there was no need for her to do so. When Jeremy started to speak again; she jumped, having been lost in her own world for a moment; his voice guided her back to reality. Putting to her a question about virginity. "..What..?" She started, momentarily stunned at the question, before she realised that she'd never talked about her sex life, unlike the guys, who shared absolutely anything and everything about their lives with her. "..oh, yes. I was." She replied, moving her gaze back to the wall and focusing on the same spot from moments ago.