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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 25, 2009 2:19:28 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you It was really rather strange, getting "yelled" at by someone that he didn't truly know. Over aim. Some how, even with the fact thrown in there that he didn't know James that well, it hurt. It had hurt when he had gotten an im from him (and he'd been so excited, thinking that maybe he would want to talk) just to be told that he was a creepy stalker. Then the guy had told him that he hated him. It would have hurt coming from anybody but it stung worse from James. Kassi knew that he didn't know James much. Did that change how much he liked the boy? Not one bit. It may have been admiration from afar, but it was still admiration. Maybe even love, he had thought that many times, as much as the thought absolutely terrified him. He had really, really liked James, and all he got in return was being called a freak. God, it hurt.
Kassidy sat on his bed, his arms hugging his knees up to his chest. He'd been sitting there for what felt like forever. This was his designated sulking spot. He didn't like to be all mopey in front of the band because that might lead to questions. And what was he supposed to say? That he had been "in love" (at least, that's what he thought it had been) with the lead vocalist of another band, and he'd been screamed at over aim? Some how he just didn't see that going over very well. Besides, if any of them truly cared they'd know where to find him. Kassi laid his head on his knees and snuggled Todd (his adorable stuffed animal, a fluffy lion) up to his cheek.
See? This is what happens. He told himself. Why couldn't love be like it was in the movies? Why couldn't it be more like...Titanic or something. Without the whole dieing part at the end. It shouldn't be so hard. Why did life have to be so hard? Kassi gave a little sigh. Things should be easier. Not so difficult. Unfortunately, life wasn't fair. If life was fair then he wouldn't be here, thinking about what it would be like if everything worked out. He'd be out there with James. Frustrated, with the world and himself, he gripped the pant leg of his jeans tight and buried his head further into Todd's fluffy mane. He sniffled a little and wiped at his eyes with his fist.
This was why he was afraid of love, this right here. The heartbreak that seemed to always follow. It reminded him of Romeo and Juliet a little bit. He had always thought that was a horrible love story. What kind of love story ended in the lovers being dead? He'd rather not his own love story end in him being dead. For a moment, Kassidy wondered exactly how his story would end. As much as he was afraid of falling in love, he did want to, eventually. It wasn't like he wanted to end up all alone. That would be terrible. He just hoped the right person would show up. Eventually. [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! right here!words! 526 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 25, 2009 2:59:35 GMT 1
Felix had been out and about pretty much all day with the rest of the band members. He had been in the studio with them and that was when he noticed that Kassidy wasn't there at the studio with them practicing. A spark of worry ran through his body as he exited the studio room and leaned against the closet wall taking out his cell phone and dialing Kassidy's number. Felix knew his favorite member of the band would never miss a practice unless something serious was wrong. Just thinking about that made Felix's worry increase. Kassidy had always been his favorite member of the band and secretly Felix had always had a crush on the younger boy ever since he had joined the band.
So when something was wrong with him Felix couldn't help but feel bad for the younger boy. In fact he was the one that stayed back to help the younger boy through his problems. That was a manager's job anyways to make sure all the members of his band were all alright. After a few rings Felix just hung up with a soft sigh. He then peeked inside the studio and looked to the rest of the band mates. "I'm going to go find Kassi okay you guys just keep practicing and text me if you got anything alright" he asked them softly. Once seeing each one of them nod their heads Felix then headed on over in the direction of the entrance and exit to the studio.
Once standing out in the bright sunlight he began to think of a place where he would be able to find Kassi. Only one certain place did come to his mind. "The tour bus he must be there" he just thought silently to himself. With that Felix than began to run on over in the direction of the tour bus. While running over there his thoughts were only on Kassidy. It wasn't on anything else but the younger boy and Felix knew why.
He was in love with the younger boy. But, he also knew that Kassidy was in love with another boy that wasn't him. Sighing softly he just continued on running until he reached the tour bus. That was when Felix mounted it just in time to see Kassidy on his bed and whip at his eyes with his fist. Shaking his head Felix just quickly made his way on over to Kassidy's side. Sitting down beside the younger boy he just wrapped his arms around his small frame and pulled him into a soft hug allowing him to cuddle into his chest.
"Kassi Kassi it's okay I'm here now I'm here" he spoke to the younger boy softly. Out of everyone that was part of the band it seemed like Felix was the only one who could calm Kassidy down when he was like this. "Listen to me whatever happened whatever someone told you it isn't true alright it isn't true" he just spoke softly again. He just wished people would stop hurting Kassidy. He didn't deserve the pain and suffering that people were putting him through. [/size][/right]
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 25, 2009 3:44:01 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Kassidy was so wrapped up in his thoughts, wrapped up in thinking about James how James hated him, that he didn't notice someone coming into the tour bus. All he was really paying attention to was how terrible he felt. He sure did feel terrible. So it came as a bit of a shock to him when he felt someone sitting on the bed with him by his side. Kassi glanced up and he recognized Felix. Of all the people to come walking into the tour bus, he was so glad that it was Felix. The older boy was always there for him, no matter what. It was such a relief that he was here now.
He felt Felix put his arms around him and pull him into his chest, and Kassi instantly wrapped his own arms around Felix, dropping the stuffed animal. He pushed his face into his chest and took a big, shaky breath, taking in Felix's scent. Laying his head against the boy's chest, he curled his fingers around Felix's shirt, which he had a tight grip of with his arms around him. "Felix, he..he." Kassidy stopped right there and closed his eyes tight. He could feel tears slipping down his face but he didn't care. Here with Felix, it didn't matter what he did. Felix would never ever say anything bad about him, or hurt him in any way. Kassi was sure of that.
Then again, he had been sure that James was a nice guy. He had told himself that a lot. But Felix was different than James. Way different. Glancing up at the boy's words, he looked at Felix in the eyes (which he had just noticed were a very pretty shade) before he rested his head back on his chest. "He said that he hated me." Kassi spoke in a soft voice, his voice shaking slightly. He knew that Felix would know who he meant by 'he.' He told Felix practically everything. Hearing himself say the words out loud, he cringed a bit and tightened his grip on Felix's shirt. Having Felix here helped. The pain wasn't so unbearable with Felix.
"Why doesn't he like me, Felix?" Kassi asked in that same, soft little voice. If anybody should know, wouldn't it be Felix? Felix knew everything in Kassi's eyes. He was so smart and amazing, and the best manager ever. For a second a little thought came into his brain, what if this is what love really feels like? but that thought sent a shiver through his body. He thought the world of Felix, but after what James had done to him...could he really risk it? Felix was different, though. Kassidy let out a little sigh in frustration. So many thoughts and emotions. Which ones should he act on? [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! right here!words! 469 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 25, 2009 4:15:09 GMT 1
Felix slowly reached up and took off his sunglasses setting them on to the bed before he looked back down to the younger boy that was being held in his arms and that was cuddling into his chest. Sometimes when Kassi cuddled into his chest Felix could only silently wish that Kassi could stay there forever but he knew that right now the younger boy's heart belonged to James not to him. There was nothing he could do to change that and Felix didn't want to change that knowing that also this was the very first time Kassi had ever fallen in love with.
As he heard Kassi begin to try to speak Felix just kept silent. He had a feeling that it would take a couple of times for Kassi to get out whatever was on his mind into a full sentence. Normally that was what usually happened whenever he tried to comfort the younger boy. He continued on keeping silent until the words that had come from Kassi's lips could clearly be heard and once they were a small frown appeared on to Felix's facial features. He just didn't understand how anyone could ever hate Kassi. There was something very special about the younger boy he was cradling in his arms and if James didn't see it well then he surely didn't deserve Kassi and that was that.
Slowly he just brought one of his hands up to Kassi's face and gently began to whip away his tears off of his perfect face. Everything about Kassi was perfect in Felix's eyes and it always had been there ever since he had known the younger boy. "Some people are just like that Kassi I know it's hard for you to understand right now but not everyone likes everyone in the entire world" he spoke softly down to the younger boy. Felix was trying to use a voice that Kassi would be able to understand but at the same time a comforting one so he could help comfort the younger boy and make all his sadness vanish.
Felix just made a silent mental note about talking to James whenever he saw the other boy again. "Listen to me though the way he's been treating you isn't right it has never been right and I understand that you love him Kassi but this it's not even close to love at least on his part he doesn't deserve you" Felix spoke softly. That was when he glanced around the tour bus before he looked back down to the younger boy. "Come on Kassi let's just get you into a nice warm bath it's going to help I promise you I can even bathe you tonight and you can even sleep in my bed with me tonight how does that sound" he suggested calmly down to the younger boy.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 25, 2009 22:25:25 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Felix was really warm. Sitting here with his head on his chest and his arms around him, it was...nice. If he listened hard enough he could hear Felix's heart beat. It was rather soothing. Kassi pushed himself even closer (if that was even possible) so that he was practically sitting on his lap. Again he curled his fingers into a fist around Felix's shirt, feeling his fingers moving across the boy's skin underneath his shirt. He let out a little sigh of comfort, because Felix was doing a good job at comforting him. He always did a good job.
"Some people are just like that Kassi I know it's hard for you to understand right now but not everyone likes everyone in the entire world," See, that's what he didn't get. Why couldn't people get along? Why couldn't they not fight and be nice to everyone? Kassi always tried to be nice to people. Sometimes he got frustrated with others, but he tried to not be mean. He hated fights. They were so terrible. "B-But I didn't do anything to him! How..how could he hate me if I'm always so nice to him? I don't know what I did." It just wasn't right. Kassi blinked away more tears, and sniffled a little as Felix wiped them off his face. "Why can't people all be sweet like you?" He muttered, then tried to imagine a world where everyone was like Felix. What a perfect place that would be.
At Felix's next words, about it not being love on Jame's part, he felt a stab of pain again. Way, deep down inside, he had know that. He had been terribly aware that Jame's didn't love him back. He just hadn't let himself think about that. It had been so much easier being oblivious to the fact. But now that stupid little thought (stupid little fact) had been proven. A person that loved another person didn't say that they hated said person. It sucked, but it was true. "It's not fair," He whined, mostly to himself. Life isn't fair.
Slowly, Kassidy unwrapped his arms from around Felix. He kept his head resting on the older boy's chest and laid his hands on his lap. Man, it did feel nice, all snuggled up against Felix. He sort of didn't want to leave. Kassi nodded at Felix's suggestion; he didn't say anything because he was concentrating on Felix's heart beat. Raising a hand, he pressed it against the boy's chest. "I like your heart beat." It sounded strange out loud. Sliding his hand off, (literally sliding it down Felix's chest) he lifted his head to look at him. "Alright, I'm ready." Kassi announced, referring to the suggestion Felix had made. Little prickles, sort of like goosebumps, made their way through his body as he thought about what it would be like to sleep in Felix's bed, next to him. He got even pricklier when he thought about Felix bathing him. They were good kind of prickles, though, at least he thought they were good. He wouldn't know - he had never felt that before. [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! right here!words! 521 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 25, 2009 23:05:50 GMT 1
Felix couldn't help but feel sorry for the younger boy. Kassi had been through a lot due to James and well Felix just hated that James was putting the younger boy through all this hardship. "You didn't do anything Kassi I'm sure of that but well I'm guessing that James really doesn't like really nice people that's why he doesn't get along with you" Felix spoke simply. Of course he didn't want to make it seem like it was all Kassi's fault. It wasn't his fault in the way he acted and to be quite honest Felix loved the way Kassi acted.
He saw it as bringing out the best in the younger boy. As he heard what the younger boy muttered a small soft blush formed gently on to Felix's face though he tried to hide it. He didn't want Kassi to know that he was crushing on him. Not when they younger boy was going through this hardship with another boy that he was in love with. "If everyone was just like me then we wouldn't have people in this world that are just like you Kassi don't you understand that it takes all different types of people to make a world not just one" he spoke calmly down to the younger boy again.
A small frown formed on his lips as he heard Kassi whine. He just wished there was a way to make Kassi's life a whole lot easier. Even if he was there to help him through things like this sometimes Felix could only wish he was the one who could take Kassi's place when James came to attack him that way Kassi would never be upset ever again. When Kassi talked about his heart beat Felix's blush just grew. That was when he slowly lifted the younger boy up into his arms as he carried him on over to the bathroom.
Once they were inside the bathroom Felix just kicked the door shut before he gently sat Kassi down on to the counter and he just looked at him. "It's going to be all alright Kassi I promise even if James isn't the one to love one day you will find someone I do promise you that" he said softly. That was when Felix just placed a small comforting kiss on to Kassi's cheek before he knelt down and began to add water to the tub. Standing back up he made his way on over back to Kassi and slowly began to help him take his clothes off.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 27, 2009 23:27:51 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Being told that he hadn't done anything wrong was very reassuring. He sure hoped that he hadn't done anything wrong to make James hate him. I mean, he knew that James hadn't liked it when he had tried to make-out with him that one night, but how many times had he apologized for that? A lot. People were supposed to forgive you if they apologized. Kassidy made sure to always forgive people. Hell, if James came up to him and told him that he was sorry for everything, he would forget about this whole thing. That's just how the poor kid was. He never thought about how he might not be able to trust the person again - it was automatic trust for the people that he knew and enjoyed being around. Kassi still didn't get how James didn't like him if he hadn't done anything wrong; that would be something that he might never understand. It seemed to him that he didn't understand a lot of things about life. He blushed a little when Felix said that I'm guessing that James really doesn't like really nice people and he attempted to hide his face, because blushing was kind of embarrassing. He smiled, a small, meek little smile but it was still a smile; it felt good to be called nice after being attacked by not-so-nice names.
Then he frowned at Felix's words about all different kinds of people making up the world. He couldn't really not frown. That saying had always annoyed him a bit. He agreed with it to a point; the world would be so incredibly dull if everybody was exactly the same. But couldn't there only be good people in the world? "I know…but if everyone was nice to each other, there wouldn't be any fighting or anything and bad things wouldn't happen. People wouldn't call each other names or do mean things to other people, and there would be no such thing as hating someone." Kassi sighed, getting caught up in his pretend, happy world that he had created for himself. Sometimes, like when he saw something bad on the news or a friend of his was sad about something that someone had done to them, he liked to imagine how the situation would be like in a perfect world. Example: on the news, there was always stories about people going around and vandalizing property and breaking into peoples houses to rob people; in Kassi's world, people would leave little happy notes on people's doorstep and they would break into their houses (in a nice, civilized way) just to leave them chocolate chip cookies. How wonderful would that be?
Kassidy was a little surprised when Felix picked him up, and he gave a squeal and flung his arms around Felix's neck so that he wouldn't fall or anything. He wasn't afraid that Felix would drop him, though. He trusted him not to. Nuzzling his face into Felix, he stayed silent as he was carried into the bathroom. Felix sat him down on the counter and he wiggled around in the spot, just because he could. Kassi looked at Felix, and he truly hoped that he was right. Sometimes he got the feeling that he might never ever find anybody out there in that big, wide world. "Do you really think so?" He asked, blushing again as Felix kissed him on the cheek. Kassi watched him as he started to run the water, swinging his feet lightly in a childish way. He thought of something while he was doing that, and he said, ”Sorry I wasn’t at practice today.” Kassidy hated missing practice. He always felt like he was letting someone down, or that he was being left out of something. But at the same time there was no way he would go in to practice feeling like this. Then he would just half-ass it the whole way, and that wasn’t good enough for him. Still, he felt like he needed to apologize for not being there. As Felix came back and started helping him take off his clothes, he figured that he might as well help him. So he raised his arms to help get his shirt off, and he unbuttoned/unzipped his jeans and wiggled around a bit to help get them off. Then he was down to his boxers. It was sort of strange because, well, he had never been naked in front of anybody, actually. Not even when he was totally wasted out of his head. As slutty as Kassidy acted when he was drunk, the boy was still an innocent little virgin. But he didn’t let that bother him, because this was Felix - Felix was different. So Kassi slipped off his boxers and dropped them on the pile with the rest of his clothes. [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! right here!words! 803 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 27, 2009 23:46:54 GMT 1
Felix had heard Kassi apologize for not being at practice today but he just slowly shook his head as he continued on helping Kassi out of his clothes so he could get into the bath tub with the nice warm water. "No Kassi you don't have to be sorry for missing practice what have I told you guys before your allowed to miss practice if your feeling upset, hung over or you just don't think you'll be able to practice at your full standard and I mean that and two of those things counted for you today it's understandable alright" he spoke to the younger boy. He just hated it when Kassi felt bad for missing practice. Felix understood that sometimes people needed their space away from the studio and so he wasn't like one of those harsh managers that forced his band into the studio everyday.
As Kassi was stripped naked Felix just smiled softly at the younger boy. He then made his way back on over to the tub to check the water making sure it wasn't to hot or cold. Putting his finger into the water the temperature was perfect so he just shut off the taps and made his way back on over to Kassi. Once helping the younger naked boy off the counter Felix just helped him into the water making sure he was all alright. Felix had even added some bubble bath into the water knowing that Kassi loved to bathe with bubbles and play with them.
Felix then reached on over for a fresh clean wash cloth and the bar of soap lathering the wash cloth with soap before he gently brought the wash cloth over Kassi's skin starting with his neck. Felix just made sure to be very gentle with the younger boy. "I know so Kassi there is someone out there for everyone in this world of ours sometimes their even under your nose some people are just to blind to notice it" he told the younger boy softly as he continued to bathe him.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 28, 2009 2:17:47 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Kassidy nodded as Felix, for about the billionth time, explained that it was alright for him to miss practice if he was feeling...icky, for lack of a better word. No matter how many times Felix would tell him that, he would still apologize. Apologizing was his instinctive reaction when he felt like he had done something wrong. Most of the time he hadn't done anything wrong but he still apologized. It was a habit.
He continued watching Felix as the other boy checked the water, then came back over to the counter. He was helped off the counter (again he felt sort of strange and slightly embarrassed to be naked, but not enough to say or do anything about it) and into the tub. To his excitement, oh my god, there was bubbles! Kassi loved bubble baths. Almost as much as he loved cookie dough and sharpies. The water was really warm, perfect. He sat down, giving a little sigh, and immediately started playing with the bubbles. Bubbles were so much fun. Like any (five year old) would do, he started making himself a mustache and a beard made out of bubbles. Once he had finished he giggled a little, because the bubbles tickled and he was sure that he looked really funny. Kassi wiped off his bubbly facial hair, then scooped up some bubbles on his finger. Leaning over, he wiped the bubbles on Felix's nose and giggled. "You look funny," He told him, still giggling as he looked down and swirled around the bubbles with his finger.
The wash cloth felt really good across his neck - it tickled a little and he giggled again. Kassi looked back up at Felix as he began talking again. Felix sounded so sure that there was someone out there for him, so he figured that there might as well be. Again that little thought crept into his head, what if Felix is really the one you love? and it still scared him a little. Though...what if Felix was right, and that person was right under his nose? But what if Felix didn't like him back, like James did? If he had been upset about some guy that he had hardly known not liking him, how would he react to Felix not liking him? He didn't want to think about that. Still..."How am I supposed to know if they're right under my nose?" [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! nothing (: words! 401 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 28, 2009 2:43:08 GMT 1
Felix couldn't help but giggle lightly as he watched Kassi play with the bubbles of his bubble bath. No matter what he did Felix always thought he was adorable doing it. Though he never said anything about it due to the whole James issue. Even now he was able to tell that Kassi was still in love with James. Sometimes he just wished he was the one that Kassi had fallen in love with but he didn't say anything because he didn't want to mess anything up between the two of them. "For gosh sakes I'm his manager how weird would that be if we start dating the rest of the band might begin to think I'm picking favorites" Felix just thought silently to himself. He knew how some of the band got jealous because he spent extra time looking after Kassi and being there for the younger boy. They just didn't understand why though.
As Kassi wiped some bubbles on to his nose Felix just giggled more before he pretended to do a model pose. "Don't I look smashing" he asked using a fake English accent. Giggling again he then wiped the bubbles off his nose and smiled down to Kassi. Everything about the younger boy was perfect in his eyes. To bad James didn't see it he was missing out on an amazing guy that was for sure. Once getting the last bit of bubbles off of his nose Felix just continued on bathing Kassi. He made sure to run the wash cloth with soap all over it gently over Kassi's skin in small relaxing circular motions. He didn't want to go to rough over his perfect smooth skin.
At the sound of Kassi's question Felix just stopped bathing him for a second and stared directly into his perfect eyes. "Well for starters whenever your around them everything just feels right not only that but whenever your around them your heart begins to pound faster than normal sometimes it might even skip a couple of beats" he told Kassi softly. Felix knew that whenever he was around Kassi that was happening to himself but he wondered if Kassi ever felt the same. If he didn't then Felix just decided to stay very close friends with the younger boy.
Felix then smiled softly on over to Kassi. "Alright I'm going to need you to lay back and get your hair wet so then I can shampoo and condition it think you can do that for me Kassi" he just asked the younger boy softly.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 28, 2009 3:27:52 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you "Don't I look smashing" Kassidy laughed hard at Felix's model pose and fake English accent. He covered his mouth with his hand and giggled into his hand. It was amazing how minutes ago he had been crying all alone and now here he was, laughing and smiling with Felix. Felix made everything better. "Oh yes, quiet smashing." He attempted to talk in his own pretend English accent, but he only got through the first two words before he started giggling again. Some how Kassi managed to get through his laughing fit, and he quietly drew little pictures in the bubbles. Like a smiley face, and a duck, and he wrote his name, then Felix's name. It was fun to doodle in bubbles. He wiped away his latest creation (a bunny rabbit) away, and he smiled to himself as Felix continued to rub the wash cloth over him in little circles. Felix was a very good washer, in Kassi's opinion.
All of a sudden Felix had stopped, and Kassi looked at him right in the eyes. Once again he thought about how pretty Felix's eyes were. He paid good attention to the older boy's words, and he thought for a moment. He had always felt like that whenever he saw James, and...Kassi bit down on his bottom lip as he thought of this, but he had felt like that around Felix sometimes. Like some of the times when they would cuddle he would think about how perfect it was, and whenever Felix would kiss him on the cheek he would think that his heart might burst right out of his chest with how hard it would beat. Did that mean that...him and Felix?
Kassi didn't say anything for a moment, still thinking. He was still thinking when Felix told him to lean back. He leaned back, closing his eyes tight so that he wouldn't get any soap or water in them, still thinking. Kassi came back up and sat there for a minute. Part of him really, really wanted to tell Felix about his thought that maybe they were supposed to be together. He always told Felix everything! But (there was those stupid but's and what if's again) what if Felix didn't think that, and it would just be like the whole James incident all over again. Just much worse. Then again, what if they his thinking was right, and Felix did like him (love him) back and both of them never ever said anything and they never found out the truth. Both of the situations seemed bad to him. Finally, he decided to say something. He hoped really hard that this wouldn't back fire on him. "So...Felix, can I tell you something?" Kassi looked over at Felix, and he realized how amazingly gorgeous the guy was. He wondered what it would be like if Felix could read his mind and he knew what he was thinking. He also hoped that his face didn't give it away too much - he was sure that he looked nervous. This better work. [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! nothing (: words! 509 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 28, 2009 3:53:05 GMT 1
As Kassi leaned back into the water Felix just waited a couple of moments for him to sit back up. Once he did Felix just smiled down to him and grabbed the bottle of shampoo. Putting some on his hands he then gently began to rub it all through Kassi's hair making sure not to miss any of it. Though he just stopped as he heard the sound of Kassi's voice and looked down to him. "You know you can tell me anything Kassi you truly don't have to ask" he told the younger boy softly. It was the total truth though. Whenever Kassi needed to talk to him Felix always listened no matter what the younger boy needed to talk to him about. Be it about relationships or about the band it didn't matter to Felix he would still listen.
He then went back to rubbing the shampoo throughout Kassi's hair. Once that was done he then gently helped Kassi lay back again. "Shut your eyes so you won't get any shampoo in your eyes alright" he suggested calmly down to the younger boy. With that Felix just ran his hands through Kassi's hair again using the water to help him rinse out the shampoo from his hair. Felix even made sure to use Kassi's favorite scent of shampoo knowing he loved his hair smelling good. Making sure he got every last bit of shampoo out of Kassi's hair he then helped the younger boy back up into a sitting position and smiled brightly at him.
"You can tell me anything Kassi always remember that" he told the younger boy softly. Felix didn't want him to start to feel like he couldn't turn to him when he needed help.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 28, 2009 4:17:11 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Usually Kassidy didn't bother to ask Felix if he could tell him something. He usually just sort of blurted it out. But this felt...different. He was really actually nervous, because all those little thoughts kept on running through his head, and they all seemed to counter each other. One thought would tell him one thing, then another one would tell him the exact opposite. It was so confusing! He stayed quiet as Felix rubbed the shampoo through his hair. He was trying to think of a way to word this.
Kassi shut his eyes tight as Felix laid him back down and rinsed the shampoo out of his hair. In his head, he was trying out all different ways to say this. None of them sounded totally right. They all sounded too...planned out, like he was thinking into it too much. He was, though. Felix brought him back up and he took a strand of his hair and ran his fingers through it, then sniffed it and smiled. All soft and yummy smelling, just how he liked it.
Now it was time to say this. Kassidy smiled brightly back at Felix, then he took a deep breath. He wasn't sure how long it would take him to actually get to the point. "Well, I was just thinking, and I know this thing with James just happened, but..." This was the part he wasn't sure about saying. He took another breath. "I think I..like you, but more than like really. Sometimes I get little prickles, kinda like gooesbumps, all over me when you're around, and my heart beats really fast, like you said, and my breath gets caught in my throat a little..." Kassidy paused, not sure if he had said too much. He took a look at Felix and then quickly, like he was afraid that if he looked at him for too long that this would all end badly, he looked down. He got himself ready for the worst. [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! nothing (: words! 330 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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Post by felix white on Sept 28, 2009 4:28:39 GMT 1
Felix just kept silent as he listened to the words that were coming from Kassi's lips. Just listening to them made him smile. Though when he spoke his last sentence it was then that he knew that Kassi felt the same about him the way Felix felt about him. Watching him look down Felix just sighed softly as he shook his head. He then gently brought one of his hands under Kassi's chin and lifted his head back up so he could look up to Felix. "Kassi the truth is I've been feeling the exact same ever since you first joined the band but with the whole James issue and knowing it was your first time truly falling in love with someone I didn't want to say anything" he told Kassi truthfully.
Ever single word that Felix spoke right now was coming from what he had been holding in and what he truly wanted to tell Kassi all along. That was when Felix just leaned down close enough to kiss him. But, this time he didn't kiss Kassi on the cheek like he normally did. No this time this kiss was different. Slowly and gently not wanting to move to fast Felix pressed his lips gently against Kassi's and wrapped his arms gently around the smaller boy as he continued on kissing him not even caring if his clothing was getting wet. This had to be the most happiest day in his life.
Not only did he get to help out a friend but at the same time he was able to tell the one guy who he had loved how he truly felt. After a couple of moments Felix just broke the kiss and stared directly into Kassi's perfect eyes. "I love you Kassidy Berwik I always have and I always will and well I was wondering would you Kassidy Berwik care to be my beautiful boyfriend" he asked the younger boy softly.
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Post by kassidy berwik on Sept 29, 2009 12:55:43 GMT 1
( PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO )i desperately need you Kassi continued to stare down, waiting for a reply from Felix. He had already prepared himself for the very worst that could happen. God, he was so nervous. It seemed like an eternity before Felix lifted his head up, and he stared straight into his eyes. With each word, Kassidy could feel his heart pounding fast and hard, and he was smiling. Oh my gosh, he liked him back! He got that crazy feeling where he felt a whole bunch of things at once; he wanted to cry (the happy kind of crying, like at weddings,) smile, kiss Felix, laugh at his silly pessimistic thoughts, and curl up in a little ball somewhere (because he was still scared about the whole 'in love' thing, a bit.) That was a lot of things to want to do at one time.
He was so caught up in his own thoughts that Kassi didn't even notice that Felix was leaning towards him. That is, until their lips were being pressed together. Kassi leaned into the kiss, being pulled closer by Felix's arms - but not really close seeing as there was a tub in between them. He listed a hand and ran his fingers through the other boy's hair, then slide his hand down so that it rested on Felix's cheek. It felt good to kiss him - he felt those prickles again. This was what love should really feel like, he decided.
Then Felix broke the kiss, and Kassidy let his hand fall back into the water, and he listened to him. He said i love you. That surge of a million different emotions hit him again. Once Felix had finished speaking Kassi smiled and he kissed him softly before replying. "I love you too, Felix White," as much as it freaked his brain out to say that, he was sure it was true, "and I want nothing more in the whole wide world than to be your boyfriend." [/size] notes! nada! tags! felix <333 outfit! nothing (: words! 327 lyrics! owl city; meteor shower
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